Posted by: Philip Carr-Gomm | December 30, 2013

Hope is the Note

A guest post by Maria Ede-Weaving…

Art by Susan Seddon Boulet

Art by Susan Seddon Boulet

 

I sorrow not though the world is wrapped in sleep

I sorrow not though the icy winds blast

I sorrow not though the snow falls hard and deep

I sorrow not this too shall soon be past

~ Scott Cunningham

 

At Winter Solstice, we are required to sing to the dark, trusting and knowing in our hearts that the renewal of light and life emerge from its mysterious blackness. My Yule celebrations have, over the last few years, been an honouring not only of the rebirth of the sun – of the golden child of promise that resides in each of us – but also of that great darkness from which all life is born.

In my Alban Arthan ritual I call upon the Goddess as Mother of Mystery, Magical Star Mother, Goddess of the Milky Way who has birthed our galaxy, who has set in motion the circling planets around her burning heart the sun; who carries the earth in her womb and the moon upon her brow, and whose starry cloak swirls around her in her spiral dance. She is the Ancient One, the silent depths of space, patient as eternity, unfathomable mystery, and through her ever turning seasons – her cycles of sun and moon – she brings us growing wisdom. With each turning of her silver wheel she shows us new connections, deepening our understanding. She is the Great Spider Mother, glistening web of all creation, the guiding thread that brings us deep into the spiral. She grasps our hands in the blackness and through her maze of dark nights and new dawns, urges us to witness the interconnection, the beauty and diversity of her web. Our faithful guide, our sacred strength and vision, from the soil of the earth and the dust of the stars she has shaped us. At this time and season, she exchanges her Samhain cloak of dark feathers for a cloak of shining stars; stripping back all that shrouded us, until the glow of our souls in the darkness is all that can be seen. No system can explain her; no theory can encompass her. We endeavour always to stay open to her wonder and grace, knowing that she is unknowable and boundless, that she is infinite potential, the true magic of all life. Through her we learn to take the threads of our being and weave the seeming chaos of our lives into vibrant patterns, just as she has spun and woven all life into being. She is the fertile darkness, shot through with stars – countless suns – each a bright seed.

The most poignant quality of the Winter Solstice festival is hope; a little spark of brightness at the darkest moment. No matter what our beliefs may be, hope is something we all endeavour to hold on to; being without hope feels deathly. But what is it that enables us to feel this most cherished of states even when all around us might suggest that our hope is merely an act of self-delusion?

A few Solstices back, I was in Tintagel in Cornwall. I had walked up to St Madron’s, the little church on the cliff. Once inside, I had lit some of the candles next to the beautiful Mary statue and sat contemplating the light that now filled the stillness of that simple space. The wind roared outside but the thick stone walls – so often buffeted by the fierce winds coming off the Atlantic Ocean – enclosed and held me. In the dusk, with the weather groaning and heaving outside and the candle light warming the greying light, I felt the most extraordinary peace. I felt safe, as safe and peaceful as the occasional times of sleeping in my mother’s bed as a child, an event that – like no other – made me feel that nothing would or could harm me. A couple of days later, I found ourselves back in St Madron’s on another windy night, listening to beautiful choral music; the voice of the powerful winds circling the building and the voices of the choir that filled its inner space, moved me to tears that night.

There is a beautiful modern altar window in St Madron’s that depicts the sun and moon and the changing of the seasons but there are also smaller, older windows that personify ‘faith’, ‘charity’ and, of course, ‘hope’. They seemed very apt standing before them at midwinter, knowing that the coldest weather was yet to come. So what is at the heart of these qualities that we might derive some wisdom and guidance from? It is true that we can be hopeful in happy times, when life is going well but hope really comes into its own when we ourselves are being buffeted by the fierceness of living; floored and wrong footed by the strength of it and the seeming powerlessness of our actions. Faith, hope and charity seem like such quaint Victorian concepts but on deeper inspection, they are all guiding lights in the darkest times.

For me ‘faith’ is not blind acceptance of dogma regardless of appropriateness; faith is about trusting in the direction that life and one’s spiritual journey will take you – it is actually a perpetual process of losing and regaining one’s faith and trust, moving into those moments of hopelessness that we might touch upon the mystery of Grace in our lives. Grace’s impact works best when all hope seems to be lost. Charity is not only about a duty of generosity to others, it is also about retaining an open heart, a generosity towards life itself; it is an unclenching of the spirit and an eagerness to share ourselves authentically; to step beyond our own fears, obsessions and self-preoccupations to truly be able to give of ourselves, to others and to the world, and in doing so, be willing and trusting enough to receive. In these ways, Charity and Faith feed and bolster our Hope; they give us the evidence that life and people are essentially good, that there is indeed much to be hopeful about.

However, there will be moments when we feel so low that hope appears lost. We need to sit and be, allow that darkness to enfold us like those meter thick walls in Cornish churches; let that enfolding take the brunt of stormy weather whilst we sit silently and wait for the light to slowly grow. Have you ever noticed that when we light a candle at night in an unlit room and focus on its flame, the periphery of our vision is filled with the darkness; this darkness – like those sturdy walls of St Madron’s Church – can enclose and support us; it is not the place where hope dies; it is the fertile and mysterious void where hope is born. Out of the darkness comes light and this is the simple and powerful message of the Winter Solstice. At this place of apparent lack, we find a small, still moment of Grace, sparking into being. Both Pagans and Christians symbolise this moment with the birth of a child – never a more appropriate image.

I started by asking what it is that enables us to hope beyond hope. I think it is because we know what it is to experience love – whether being loved, cherished and protected by our mothers or other loved ones or guardians, friends, lovers or children; we loving in return, knowing how extraordinary a feeling that is. Even if we are totally alone in the world and even if love feels utterly lost to us, the memory of love is powerful; the essence of love is everywhere, in the beauty of the natural world and in the simple gestures of human living whether it be the acknowledgement of self gifted by the passing smile of a stranger or any of the countless little things that fill our day with meaning.

I wish for you a Festive Season filled with love and the sure knowledge that the sun will always rise again. I wish also that you might discover, time and again, that Hope is the clear, bright note of the heart and soul, struck in the still darkness, its sound rippling out through the blackness to call you home.


Responses

  1. Your quote from Cunningham’s book caught my eye. I mention it also in a post of mine from last month.
    http://emeraldforce.blogspot.com/2013/11/snow-and-winter.html
    Of course, I am talking about the actual season of winter, though there is obviously an analogy that can be made to any period of time in life that can be thought of as a “winter.” I think that for any form of spirituality to do its job, it has to teach it’s user to stop and listen to the universe until eventually, one can do this effortlessly and constantly. It becomes clear at some point that everything happens for a reason. Any so called “winter” only appears as a “winter” relative to other periods in your life. Such periods occur in our lives because they are necessary for us to learn a certain lesson. The longer it takes to learn the lesson, the longer the winter will last. Hiding from a physical winter in a warm home by a fireplace can be likened to hiding from a metaphorical winter with the help of alcohol, drugs, etc. until the winter passes. Of course, it will keep coming back repeatedly until finally, one day, you decide to face it and learn what it has to teach you, which you eloquently summarize above.

  2. This message meant a lot to me. I am very grateful. Thanks

  3. So beautiful an expression of all that is the Winter Solstice in its depth and its simplicity. Thank you

  4. I can’t seem to figure out how to sign back into this blog site. Oh well. I am Twig. Utilityinfielder is my screen name elsewhere. ???
    This is such a powerful post, and I wish to thank Philip for posting it & Maria Ede-Weaving for writing it. I plan to print this & keep it, which is notable as I am at a time in my life when I am off-loading & down-sizing. It’s that good.

  5. Thank you Philip. At the lowest points along our journey, it is too too easy to roll oneself into a protective ball as a hedgehog does, and let the world be damned. BUt that, in truth, never works. Emily Dickinson was truly right on when she penned “Hope is that thing with feathers…” – ready to take flight in a new direction, on better winds that will send her sailing aloft to distant shores. The Blessings of Avalon to one and all for this New Year.

  6. What a lovely message this is. It shows us that the darkness of these days has a purpose and we will soon be reborn into the light of spring. Thank you for the lifting of spirit in this time.

  7. Thank you, Maria and Philip. Another beautiful and timely piece, both unique and universal.

  8. Maria, what a profound and beautiful reflection on Winter Solstice. I love these words of yours: ‘For me ‘faith’ is not blind acceptance of dogma regardless of appropriateness; faith is about trusting in the direction that life and one’s spiritual journey will take you – it is actually a perpetual process of losing and regaining one’s faith and trust, moving into those moments of hopelessness that we might touch upon the mystery of Grace in our lives.’
    And also the link you make at the end between hope and love, even the memory of being loved. This rings so true.
    It’s just past summer solstice here in New Zealand right now, but I appreciate the chance to hold the opposite as well. Thank you.

  9. La nuit n’est jamais complète (Paul ELUARD)

    The Darkness never is infinite
    There always is :
    I say, I say for sure…
    at each grief`s finish…
    an open door, a lighted window
    There`s always an awaited dream
    …A generous heart,
    An open hand,
    A tense hand for you !
    Attentive eyes,
    Life,
    Life to share


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